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  “That’s the way it is.”

  “How is Sue taking it?”

  “Breaking her heart.”

  Some of them grinned, and someone said. “It’s a goddamned dirty shame, because there never was a finer guy than Jack Brady.”

  “You can say that again.”

  It was after seven before they sat down to eat and almost nine before they had finished. He had clams, roast beef, and finished up with a piece of blueberry pie and coffee. He felt full and comfortable and resentful against the wake, and chastised himself with the thought of how it must have seemed to Brady, just keeling over at the last minute, the way he did.

  They ordered a round of brandy, and over it one asked, “Did anyone call the Mayor?”

  “Frankie did. Frankie’s taking care of the arrangements.”

  “He would. What about a drink up there?”

  Glad he had remembered, he told about the Scotch and bourbon he had ordered—“Not that Jack didn’t always have a little on hand.”

  On their way out, they picked up two sports writers from the Journal and Gibbon, from the Telly.

  “I wrote the obit myself,” Gibbon said. “Did you know he was with the old 77th?”

  Some did and some didn’t.

  “He was worth five punks from this fracas. That was a war.”

  They got into three cabs and rode over to the Park Avenue address. The Garden crowd were just entering the building when they arrived, and everybody paused in front to exchange hellos and introductions in a subdued tone of voice. Then Dan Raye arrived and said that he had cancelled his performance for tonight. They crowded into the elevator.

  He felt a little funny about all the big wheels, and began to wonder if he had ever been really close to a big-time operator like Jack Brady. He had thought of the liquor and he had thought of the wreath and he had rushed over before noon to see what he could do, but Brady moved in the top crowd, and it made him question whether he wasn’t walking into Brady’s death the same way he had walked into his life.

  “The hell with it,” he told himself. “I had some damn good times with Jack Brady.”

  Toots had made up a big basket of food, which Joe Schree was carrying, and he wondered now why he had not thought of that himself. But when they got upstairs, there already was a table loaded down with sandwiches, plates of cold cuts, and a suckling pig, half-carved, looking like a monster embryo. At least thirty people had already arrived, and the bar was set up in one corner, with everybody making his own drinks. Helen Canyon was acting as hostess and when he had a moment, he drew her aside and asked about the body.

  “It’s in the funeral parlor,” she said. “It’s no use making it worse for Sue than it is.”

  “Sure,” he said, thinking that after all it would be easier for everyone present without Brady also being present. “How is Sue?”

  “She’s a soldier, all right. She’s in the bedroom.”

  Almost all of the few women there were in the bedroom with Sue. He went in and said a few words to her, and in spite of himself he couldn’t help but imagine himself crawling in with her. She was a big, handsome blond with a good figure, and he said to himself:

  “What a lousy, cheap line of thought for Brady’s wake!”

  He went back to the living room and passed an hour or so just milling around and saying hello to various people and being introduced to others as a good old friend of Jack Brady’s. It was after ten o’clock now, and some of the people were leaving. He and four or five of the others, all boys who had been pretty close to Jack Brady, stood in the pantry and swapped memories about one thing and another that they had shared with the dead man. A lot of the stories concerned the time Brady was in Chicago, and he felt somewhat left out of them, but when the stories shifted to the close past, he felt more at home, and he told about how he and Brady had shacked up with the Deleharty sisters in Philadelphia.

  It was almost eleven when Father Costello came in. Most of the men still left were pretty drunk by then, but if Father Costello noticed it, he didn’t remark on it. Father Costello was an old friend of his, and that made him feel better, especially the way Father Costello sat down next to him and said:

  “Well, man comes and man goes, even the best.”

  “Even the best, Father.”

  “And somewhere in it there’s reason and justice and a supreme guiding intelligence. That’s what’s important to remember.”

  “I try to remember that, Father. I sure as hell do.”

  At a quarter to twelve, he called Alice, who should have just been finishing with a hot glass of milk at home, after the show, but no one answered the phone, and he said “The bitch!” sourly, the drinks wearing onto the bottom of his stomach by now.

  A kind of sallow joylessness had settled over the apartment by one-thirty in the morning, and some of the boys agreed with him that it did no one any good, least of all Jack Brady, to spend the night here. Sue had gone to bed and Father Costello had gone home, so they made a few calls and arranged to go over to the Cub Room. He tried Alice again and told her to meet him there.

  “You sound lit,” she said.

  “I had a couple of drinks. Jack Brady was maybe the best friend I had in the world.”

  They went downstairs and got cabs and went over to the Stork Club. He felt sick and low and suddenly hungry, and he kept remembering the roast suckling pig and wishing he had made a sandwich of it. He asked Alice if she liked roast suckling pig.

  “What a question!”

  “Well do you or don’t you?”

  “I don’t. It tastes like baby would taste roasted.”

  “How in hell do you know what baby would taste like?”

  “That’s what it would taste like,” Alice said stubbornly.

  “I ought to kick her in the teeth, the big blond bitch,” he said to himself.

  “Why don’t you order some caviar and toast?” she asked him.

  “Because I don’t want caviar and toast. Let’s go over to Reuben’s and have a steak.”

  “If you want a steak,” she said.

  But when they got to Reuben’s he changed his mind and had scrambled eggs and Nova Scotia salmon. It was four o’clock in the morning when they had finished, and only Ed Hartly of the boys was left. They dropped him off at his place and rode over to her apartment.

  He sat down in the bedroom, and as she began to undress he thought to himself, “If she’s got one of those wire brassieres on, I’m going to spit right in her face.” She had a wire brassiere on. He got up and started out of the room.

  “What is it now?” she demanded.

  “Nothing. Nothing. I’m going home.”

  “What did I do now?”

  “Nothing. You don’t expect me to come out of Jack Brady’s wake and crawl into bed?”

  “Why not?”

  “The hell with you,” he said, slamming the door into the face of what she said, something about a suckling pig. As he waited for the elevator, he tried to remember Father Costello’s words about reason, justice and something else.

  The Rickshaw

  IT WAS ONE hundred twenty degrees in the shade but I walked back to the Press Club because I had principles, and one of them was that I would not be drawn by a man who serves the function of a beast. I had lately come from the North, where sometimes it was one hundred forty degrees in the shade, but it was dry there, and in an hour you could dehydrate yourself completely, yet never get a drop of moisture on your shirt. It was not dry here; it was wet, and I got wet, underwear, shirt, pants and all. So I plodded along most uncomfortably, only stopping once in a while beside the ghats, to watch the carefree natives swimming and diving. It looked cool and inviting, but I tempered my envy with the superior knowledge that these were the most carefully sponsored disease-breeders on earth. It was good to be a white man, wise and knowledgeable—an American among white men, which is even better—and to be able to shower and shave and put on clean clothes and order a Tom Collins and sit under an elect
ric fan while I sipped the drink.

  There, at a quarter to five, and feeling comfortably cool, I was started on the second one when the sergeant came along and sat down next to me and asked me what I was doing that night.

  “Right here,” I said. “I intend to have one more drink before dinner, and then I will have my dinner, and then I will return here and have enough drinks to become pleasantly drunk, and then I will go to bed.”

  “It’s a tough war, Mr. Eldridge,” the sergeant said.

  “For some it is,” I agreed. I liked the sergeant, but he was bound to educate me. He was in Signal Service, and getting over something in the general hospital across the road. Now he was at the end of the cure and able to get out each evening, and he liked the food in the Press Club better than what they gave him at the hospital.

  “I thought you would like to go to a meeting tonight,” he said apologetically, “because there are some people here who would like to see you and talk to you, because you’re an American writer, I mean. I mean, there are some trade-union people and some writers, and they would like to talk to you.”

  “That’s fine,” I said. “That’s fine.”

  “I mean you don’t have to go if you don’t want to go, but I told them I thought you would.”

  “You told them that?”

  “Well, I’ve been eating on you, so I thought something like this—”

  “Look, I walked four miles to get back here, and then I took a shower, and now I feel comfortable and cool for the first time today.”

  “Why didn’t you take a rickshaw?”

  I explained carefully and slowly that I did not like to be drawn by a man as by a beast. It was a principle, a very small principle. I explained to the sergeant that I still had to have a principle—just one small principle.

  “India disturbs you,” the sergeant agreed sympathetically. “Some people are sensitive about the Far East, and then it disturbs them.”

  “Thank you.”

  “I mean, I’m sorry it should disturb you this way, because there’s so much that’s interesting about it.”

  “I don’t doubt it,” I said. “When I was in Old Delhi, I used to walk past a factory sometimes, and I noticed that the boys who came off the day shift would gather under a lamp post, and one of them would try to teach the others to read. So I wrote a letter to the commissioner, pointing out how commendable such eagerness for literacy was, and didn’t he think he ought to do something about it?”

  “He never answered your letter,” the sergeant said. “Well, neither would Mayor LaGuardia.”

  “He answered my letter. He said he was having a stronger bulb put in the lamp post. I suppose you don’t believe that?”

  “I believe it,” the sergeant nodded. “It’s a funny land, but very interesting, if you’re interested in human nature, I mean. If you don’t come with me tonight, I got to go anyway, but you can get a jeep and I can’t.”

  So he stayed to eat with me, and I went with him. The Brass who ate at the Press Club were made uncomfortable by enlisted men at the table—which was understandable—but they never said anything about it, and I knew that sooner or later the sergeant would get better, and they would send him back to putting up telephone wires. I had asked the sergeant how it was that he seemed to know everyone in Calcutta—native people, not Americans or British—and in Bombay and Delhi, and in Rangoon, too, and even as far up north as Yenan; but he only answered that he always made acquaintances, and people were pretty much the same anyway, if you were interested in their problems. “I’m interested in their problems,” he said.

  After dinner, Johnny, who was a native driver, pulled out the jeep, and we got in with two Wire Service men and a Tenth Air Force captain. At that time, the lights were not yet on in Calcutta, even though certain blackout restrictions were being relaxed, and there were still very few street signs; but Johnny knew the city the way you know the palm of your hand, and you just told him where to go and he took you there. We dropped off the other three and then turned into a working-class district of semidetached houses, driving slowly until the sergeant said:

  “Here it is.”

  I told Johnny to return at half past ten, and we walked up the steps of a small stucco building, the kind that are almost a basic unit out there, two entrances and divided into four small three-room apartments. Before we went inside, I asked the sergeant:

  “What are these people—reds?”

  “What do you mean, reds?”

  “I mean, are they Communists?”

  “Some are and some aren’t. Some of them publish the magazine of the Bengal Literary Society. They’re good people, and they want to talk with you.”

  “It will be a pleasure to talk with them. We’re out of bounds, aren’t we?”

  “Maybe a little.”

  Then he knocked on the door, and it opened and we went inside, and I wondered how it felt to have your throat out in a dark corner of Calcutta. But after we were inside, I felt better about that, and saw that they were nice people, just as the sergeant had said. Everyone said hello, and then we sat down, and a girl brought us lemonade, and there was a big tray of cookies and sweet candies that looked like orange-colored pretzels. There was also an old electric fan on the ceiling, and that made it not quite so unpleasantly hot as it might have been.

  Besides the sergeant and me, there were eight men in the room—the girl went out after she had passed around the drinks—and all but one of them were Indian. The one who wasn’t Indian was a British corporal; his name was Hurley, and he had a Cockney accent, and he had behind him a year and a half in Burma. This surprised me a little, because one of the few things I had learned in India was the measure of hatred Indians had for the gentlemen who ruled them. Hurley was a big rosy-cheeked man of about thirty and when he talked, his voice boomed in the place. All of the others spoke softly—in that strangely accented English educated Indians use.

  Three of the Indians were trade-unionists, and one of them—as I learned later—was the mass leader of the Bengal workers; it was at his house that we were; the other four were literary men, two of them journalists, two of them teachers at the college. But they all had in common that elemental leanness, the fined-down quality of a people who have not eaten their fill for many, many generations. They were all nice people; they were very gentle people, and they were always thinking of the next thing they would say and framing it so that it would not hurt your feelings. They were glad to have me there, they said; there were many things in India that American newspapermen should see.

  I told them I had realized that.

  “Mr. Eldridge is sensitive about the East,” the sergeant explained, smiling at me apologetically. “Things here disturb him.”

  Our host, whose name was Charjee, nodded understandingly. “Most Americans are disturbed when they come here. It is natural, Mr. Eldridge.”

  “They get over it,” Hurley boomed.

  “It’s only natural,” the sergeant said. “Before the war, the only dead person I ever saw was my grandmother. They’re very careful about those things at home. But my friend here had to stay at Lucknow where they have the plague, and there were seven hundred dying each day and nobody to bury them—I mean they laid them out on the road instead, and it’s so hot up there—and then he comes down here for the end of the famine—well, you know what I mean.”

  “But they get over it,” Hurley said, and nobody seemed to notice anything out of the way, and no one was embarrassed, except me. I tried to catch the sergeant’s eye and express something of what I thought of him, but he was talking to one of the trade-union people, and he wouldn’t look my way.

  They must have noticed that I wasn’t too happy about the trend of the talk, because they shifted over to literary things and they talked about the young writers in India and the struggle for freedom. They had two million men fighting fascism and they said how can you keep a people as slaves who lend two million men to the fight for freedom?

  “You’re
still too gentle,” Hurley rushed in. “My word, such a gentle people, you’ve got to learn different.”

  A mosquito, hurtled down by the fan, fell on Charjee’s knee. He lifted it off and placed it on the floor—he was a Communist too, I learned later—and said, a note of apology in his voice:

  “Life is an important thing, and civilized people do not foolishly destroy what is important. Europeans become so annoyed at the cows in our streets—at famine time, I mean.” There was a sincere note of regret in his voice.

  Hurley said to me: “But make no mistake about it. The cows on the street aren’t the whole truth. You haven’t begun to understand how complicated it is.”

  I was looking around the room with its bare white plaster walls, its straight dark furniture with reed seats, its case of books, its plain grass rug on the floor.

  The teacher of English at Calcutta College said, “We would like you to stay for longer than most people stay here, and then perhaps you can write the story about us as it should be written.”

  “Mr. Eldridge writes very good,” the sergeant said. “He should write about you.”

  The girl brought in more lemonade, and we talked about the literature of four lands, and they talked with their mouths full of literature—like honey—and properly for a land where five million out of four hundred million can read or write. The girl had long eyes; with her sari draped around her, you couldn’t trace her figure, a habit with us, and you had to content yourself with her regal, erect walk. When she walked, Hurley watched her, but there was only a warm contemplation of beauty in his eyes, and it disturbed nobody.

  I was not sorry any more that I had come, but only that this strange yet homely evening under the auspices of the Bengal Literary Society was slipping away, and I looked at. my watch more frequently.

  “He asked the jeep to call for us at half past ten,” the sergeant explained.

  It was a good evening for them too, I think. Charjee shrugged it away.

  “Stay and you will have curry with us, and then you can find a rickshaw.”